The lesson

Someone here told me they had a dream about me. In it God said I lost two important things from my life. That is the truth! I have lost somethings dear to me. Out of foolishness and pain. This trip is changing my life in so many ways. I can honestly say that life will be different when I get home. I am honestly not looking forward to April 15th. I am learning and taking one day at a time really. I have a great deal of pain to work through, so I am forced to turn to the Cross! I am in the word everyday getting my comfort from God. I have made so big mistake folks! I have misread my Lord, and I took action when I should have sat and waited. I was in pain and emotinal and I wanted to fix something that only God could fix. All I did was make things worse. More pain and long term affects.
I was confused! Maybe still am! But my God is faithful, I look to the cross. God has forgiven me. The lord understands I was trying to be obident, that I was doing all I could to be faithful. My human wisdom got the message cloudy. God rebuked me, but the damage was done.
So I searched the scriptures. Acts 16:6-10 talks about Paul having a hard time figuring out what God wanted him to do. Gods will is not clear even to the most spiritual. But through time God makes his will clear.
I look at Job. He was in a state of hurt and pain such as I. He said some words that he should not have uttered, but God was still happy with him.
"God does take into consideration the severity and intensity of the trials and afflictions, and all the relevant factors in operation in the given context. We need to bear this principle in mind for our own lives and those of others." -"understanding Job"- Lim Kou
God is restoring me, God is using me. I will be stronger through all the struggles. His forgiveness is good. He has taken all my pride from me, he has taken all human knowlege and has shown it to be no more then dust. No wise words do I have. I will preach the cross and speak only the words he has given. No add on's from me. My words have done enough damage. I sit in the consequences and wait for the Lords Mercy in my life. Every morning I will wake and praise the Lord, looking only to the cross for guidence.
"Lord keep me another day, teach me to trust and rely only on you. Bring back the two things I lost, bring blessings to those I love and keep them safe. Help me to walk in love. Let me not lean on my own understanding but speak only the words you give." AMen

Blessings

Byron